my shadow

2011-05-08T05:03:00.000-07:00

Its sad, somehow no one will know whats going on in me, no one ever will

2011-03-11T18:46:00.000-08:00

2011-02-16T04:28:00.001-08:00

1 month, one day.
JY darren!!
u can do it!

meanwhile please wait for me~:/

2011-02-14T09:32:00.001-08:00

Please wait for me

2011-02-11T09:29:00.000-08:00

There will come a time when a man can no longer handle it
He will just snap.
And when he does, nth can ever b the same..

2011-02-09T06:52:00.001-08:00

just feel nothingness

2011-01-24T09:09:00.001-08:00

Maybe like what u said, should just die.

2011-01-24T09:08:00.000-08:00

Guess i cannot blame u, after all u dunno what ive been through

2011-01-21T06:43:00.001-08:00

Dk why i even bothered asking... Fml..

2011-01-07T10:40:00.001-08:00

Knn
Nt happy just ask me straight.
Dun come emo shit on blog

2011-01-06T07:16:00.001-08:00

Has been
Is and always will be

Painful

2011-01-01T06:06:00.000-08:00

the way u talk,
the whole time
not once did u seem willing to salvage anything the whole time
FML

2010-12-28T19:57:00.000-08:00

Patience i did give
I only say sth else lor..

2010-12-28T06:34:00.001-08:00

Leave me alone

2010-12-28T06:29:00.000-08:00

I've said it before, and nw its back to square one, im sick of it...

Kill me

2010-12-28T06:26:00.000-08:00

I don’t know what I’m doing now.

Shouldn’t I cherish him more than anything else rather than pushing him away?

I have lesser time than any other people.

Why am I wasting time doing things that I will regret?

I wonder how long more can I carry on…

U better sort things out... Because just like u, im confused.

2010-12-28T06:25:00.001-08:00

I see
Since ur original plan is to not talk to me, okay, im on my own then..

How i wish i was ben sometimes..

2010-11-29T03:34:00.001-08:00

Im sorry, i wun disturb u anymore.

2010-11-14T07:36:00.000-08:00

i feel like i have to die to atone my sins for it now..
sadd now nt tt ur sad..
sad that u could nt understand that i had no choice and couldnt meet me halfway..
i know ur upset, but please understand it was unintentional and i had no choice
sorry baby

2010-11-14T03:28:00.000-08:00

Thanks baby for buying lunch for me and my dad.
Sorry for making you upset most of the time.
But i do believe we are getting better after each quarrel, right? :)
Count down to 9 more days to the 4th.
I love you baby <3

triff :D

2010-11-12T05:40:00.001-08:00

and u have a way of putting me down no matter what.

2010-11-12T05:28:00.000-08:00

quit saying ur the one always upset.
im sick of it
u think ur the only one?

2010-11-12T05:16:00.001-08:00

i bet ur still thinking im upset over u talking to him

2010-11-12T05:06:00.000-08:00

im sad today.
not because u talk to other guys
but u think r/s are just so fragile and fickle..
i know ur reading this..
u think u could meet me halfway?

2010-11-12T04:31:00.000-08:00

how naive was i to think so

2010-11-12T04:30:00.000-08:00

i want an honest one
a commited one who will change.
i want an outspoken one.

2010-11-09T07:58:00.000-08:00

mm, been one hell of a day..
been chionging pw for the past week
yea okay i admit ive beeen really lazy to go to school also along with those bad tummy aches and stuff, really didnt make me wna go school.
today i felt bad, so i decided to just chiong all the way even though i was dying halfway cause i was really sick..
got freaking pissed off with people when im actually wanting to help them but they see no point in us doing this and all they do is whine..
disappointing part is when they said that they have done a great load of work,
they have done nothing..
seriously i was v angry, but aiya
too sick to scold
went to school at 8, puncual boy 123~!
had meeting with mr hiap till nine which was pointless becasue we didnt make full use of it, in my opinion..
ended up doing the real work from eleven onwards, then we really worked at it.. or at least for those who wanted to..
stayed an hour plus more to edit up the slides and final touches while some slacker instead of going home on his own to send me his work, he takes his friends iphone to play.. worse, sc's iphone, its like encouraging him to slack, when it really isnt right..
fed up, but nvm, i decided to help anyone who asked for it and help them to my fullest ability.
left school around three
deposited money
but the touch screen machine was seriously screwed up.
heres what happened
i deposited my money in
they asked me to confirm deposit
i pressed the screen confirm button
i pressed the confirm button!! i really did
and then it asked me to deposit money again...
i did again and it repeated.. and the queue was super long, so i tried it twice and gave up zzz
met baby triff on the train and talked about our friend's problem..
felt that somehow triff and i had that problem too, only not that serious.
went up to her place for lunch/dinner, played with her three dogs!! got my windbreaker
then triff got tired, slept the moment she lied on her bed, okay, less than a minute she slept..kinda cute though, seeing her sleep <3
so i didnt disturb her, said goodbye to uncle, huixian jie and baby cheryth,
and headed home..
sigh

sad boy darren lee, hello 123
good thing i met triff and had a little while to cool down and get back on track to my work..
thanks for being there triff:D
OH AND TO ALL! PLEASE BE VERY CAREFUL, THERES BEEN ALOT OF HACKING THESE DAYS!! SO BE REALLY REALLY CAREFUL WHEN U GO OUT..
stay alive people, we need u more than u think xp
nights!
tmr is the day for OP
hope no screw ups
:D smile because he really came back:D

2010-11-06T08:25:00.001-07:00

it was just a thought,
just like a dream
it comes naturally..

2010-11-03T10:56:00.000-07:00

this is a corner..
it is big enough to sleep in and hug myself, as well as to cry..

2010-11-03T10:47:00.000-07:00

gtoing off to emo world now..
i was the cause of the problem, and i say it was her problem
i was flame that cause the fire to burn..
fuck this shit
fucking hate today
everything about today ends badly
some"end badly" day.
i fucking hate myself for having this fucking mindset in my own fucked up head that fucked up so many people.

to the emo carpark

2010-11-01T10:47:00.000-07:00

ur tired..
what about me?
i know for the past three months u've been nice, giving in to me almost all the time
but we never get to resolve our problems because we dont discuss our issues directly
take right now for an instance..
im actually talking to u online on msn
but i have to explain all of this on my blog
its just like im beside u when we go out, and u tweet about how u feel, and im expected to go see twitter to know how ur feeling when ur right beside me..
do u have any idea how wierd/ironic/stupid that sounds
okay
then u tell me u cannot express ur emotions in front of me
because of i dont know why..
did u try?
i honestly can tell u that not being able to express ur emotions to someone via sms
is just plain wierd
i dont believe that u cannot express..
unless ur telling me ur down with a brain malfunction
i believe that it is only ur will that u dont want to..
i believe that if u actually made an effort to tell me, it could be done
its just whether or not u are willing..
if u say u suck at expressing ur feelings but u try
i can accept that
but u dun even want to
u just say u cant..
sometimes when we go out
u tweet about something that ur upset about..
be it about me, or my friends or anything
i dont even know
honestly u have literally cast me aside
outcast, tts the term..
u blog about how u feel,
im ur boyfriend and i dont get the privelage of getting first hand information from u, sometimes when u are right beside me? i literally have to guess what ur tweet is about..
im sorry but i just dont get it..

to my baby triff:
baby i know ur tired,tired of explaining, tired of doing so much for me
and giving in to me..
i'm just like u, really tired..
im lost, confused and most of the time emotionally outcasted in our relationship..
so do you think we can redo it all over again?

ps:i'm sorry and i love you.

2010-11-01T10:23:00.000-07:00

i want u tell me DIRECTLY what is it u want

2010-11-01T09:54:00.000-07:00

i am nothing more but a self centred bastard

2010-11-01T09:37:00.000-07:00

today
i was unwell in the morning
told triff i couldnt send her home..
felt really bad..but she was okay??
ltr on in the evening i felt better and a friend was sad, wanted to grab a break
so went out in the evening to cheer her up..
went to scape, came home..

2010-10-22T19:13:00.000-07:00

today will be a better day.

2010-10-21T09:19:00.001-07:00

just when i thought things were getting better..

2010-10-21T09:14:00.000-07:00

for all i know, u might be writing tt v long break up message..

2010-10-21T09:11:00.000-07:00

and i really dont get it,
its damn obvious that he is flirting with u,
cant u even see it?
i always try to be there,
u just put me down before i even could...
i dont even know what ur thinking right now..
today ur just wierd and unreasonable..

2010-10-14T06:56:00.000-07:00

its freaking ironic..
i really dont know what else to say or do
just know tt i feel like bursting out any moment now.

2010-10-09T10:11:00.000-07:00

i realised i was v bad over this period of time
i wanted to be nice today and try to fix the problem or at least change the way we talk
but then when i wanted to ask why this happens u say ur sian ttm, and then u talked about leo being so nice to you, making roses to u everyday..
i felt damn useless
and last night when u "scolded" me, u kept saying it was too late..
so its too late for me then..
i cant even say this to u.

2010-10-09T09:48:00.000-07:00

i realised i've been very wierd
i havent notice it until recently.
ever since we got together, ive been very very selfish
ive gone whacked out over the littlest things

sorry.

pages of life by tyler ward

2010-10-02T06:38:00.001-07:00

he sits in the hallway,
reading the letters she left him last night
dear friend i will miss u
but its been way too long and ive been to polite
so this is over
over between what youve ask me to be
im finally sober
and nothing can change now im ready to breathe

time to fly
mark this one down in the pages of life
say goodnight
further and further away from the night

maybe i'll see you again
give me a few years my friend

mother has just left away father still dont unerstand
sister has packed all her things
father still blames her for crumbling planes
now this is over
over between what youve wanted from me
im finally sober
and nothing can change now im ready to breathe

time to fly
mark this one down in the pages of life
say goodnight
further and further away from the night
time to fly
saw this one coming for wrong and for right
say goodnight
futher and further away from the night

maybe i'll see you again
give me a few years my friend

(hope its accurate)

2010-09-21T06:24:00.001-07:00

if only u know my fear right now..

2010-09-07T08:38:00.001-07:00

dunno dunno
i dont know what im saying, i dont know what ur thinking,
dunno why
dunno how..

2010-09-07T08:32:00.000-07:00

it was upsetting

2010-09-05T10:59:00.001-07:00

call me paranoid...
but something's wrong.

2010-08-28T10:02:00.000-07:00

u wna know what im feeling?
maybe when u imagine that "i'm with another woman"
then u could get the pic...
he's your ex.. does that make any sense?
yes i can tell u this
i dun like it

bye
im off to cry out my sorrow..

The words left unspoke ..

2010-08-22T09:07:00.000-07:00

Its been already a month, eleven more to the 41st, iknow i've been wierd recently
n im sorry that i am like that...
But sometimes
i just dont get u, everytime we go out, u say ur tired, but the moment i sent u home, u tonn overnight
everytime i ask u sth u always give me the same answer, u said we dont talk much nowadays
simply because everytime i ask somethingu tell me the same answer! What can i say? Nothing.. its not that i have nothing to say, its just upsetting because sometimes ur answer just doesnt make me wna talk to u
its not that im angry, im upset and i dont want u to know of it, its making me crazy deep down. Im sorry..
Happy first month:)..

2010-08-15T04:43:00.000-07:00

sometimes i really wonder
if that was always your answer
when one day i'll ask
would you wna maintain this r/s?
and all i'll get is a .."i'm lazy lei.."

or even would u even want to be with me..
"anything"

i'm sorry for today..
but i just cant stand it..

2010-08-11T07:12:00.000-07:00

CCB!
its not like i never do my work ok! cb u come home see me on a laptop call me playing and ask me to study

THE LAPTOP U UPGRADED CRASHED ON ME AND I LOST ALL MY WORK OK!
fine... seriously
I AM GONA STUDY IN YOUR FACE!
_|_
FUCK THIS SERIOUSLY

dear god, i pray u will give me peace..........

2010-08-11T06:50:00.001-07:00

seriously, i hate it
you especially
obviously u dont understand the gravity of the situation, simply just giving us a piece of crap and walk off?
get lost la, who the hell do you think you are?king? if u think u are so pro, why the hell are u in pjc?
A key leader must be responsible..
this is why u are a failed leader, a fucking failure,
u gave me a good reason, a damn good one, to push even harder and own all of u,
get loss, get out of my sight,
ur face is too ugly to be seen..

2010-08-03T17:42:00.000-07:00

Its been a crazy week.. I know..
Im sorry that i made u upset,
im sorry for leaving there alone last night
im sorry for cancelling our meeting yesterday,
im sorry for not meeting u and ag on 31st july
im sorry for even making u upset about the past few weeks even beforr we got together,
im sorry for not considering how u felt when all of these happened and yet i was not there..
Im not ur dream boyfriend neither am i too good for u,
but im gona work really hard to make u my life's mission.. Its really hard, but i'll rather do it alone than let u handle anything

but despite it all, i thank u for being there more than ever:)
thanks babe, and
p.s: i love you..

2010-07-29T10:32:00.000-07:00

Thanks babe:) ur the best..
I'll chase u, and i will run with u tgt:)

2010-07-25T01:54:00.000-07:00

this week
a happy and great..
so many things happened
but i really enjoyed myself and i hope u are too:D
oh btw, nodame cantabile is really cute, should check it out if u havent(to anyone who is reading this:D)

i love you if u are reading this xp

2010-07-22T06:18:00.002-07:00

i wanted to reach out and touch u..
but i fear of what the future may bring..

hear is my plea, can u hear me?

im screaming deep down from the bottom of my heart,and maybe thats why u cant hear me..

2010-07-21T18:23:00.000-07:00

I meant what i said..

If i told u that i love u, would u walk out of my life?
Cause if that would really happen, i would keep it to myself and bring it to my grave..

2010-07-14T07:34:00.000-07:00

crazy times it has been
its really mad...
gona be worse..

i have had dreams and nightmare, but i overcome nightmares cause of my dreams...

go for it..

Crossroads

2010-06-29T07:29:00.000-07:00

Crossroads: these are the very choices that decide who u really are,
these are the very choices u look back and thing what if, if only..
I hope i know what i am doing,
i need to snap out of it... LOOK at whats going on.. You're only as good as your last story...
Im sorry, im really sorry for making u feel what might be feeling now..
I dont know what to do, do u?

Compromise: we live in worlds dimensions apart, can i make the choices right to make u feel comfortable.
If i do, would you do the same??
There is nothing i can guarantee, im not what i am..

I will protect what i will..

2010-05-30T19:13:00.001-07:00

been a while,
life's great?
P talked to us bout some stupid comments, seriously lame,
but if she was seriously then ok lor, work on it then..

sigh, i came to pj, hoping to really study, turns out...
nvm, study sessions ftw..

2010-04-20T05:57:00.000-07:00

Untitled:
here i am, stuck at home while she's suffering out there right now..
helpless as i am, i left...
this world is not my home, im just passing through, right now, she might be on her way..
i have done many things to regret, this might just make it at the top of the least..
and as i plead out, did u hear me!?
its funny how things change so drastically in a moment's time...

2010-04-19T05:44:00.001-07:00

im not gona say much,
its not gona be good,
i have a bad feeling about it
i really hope she will be ok='(

2010-03-17T05:05:00.000-07:00

OH WELL!
HERE I AM
ITS THE MARCH HOLIDAYS
ITS FUNNY BECAUSE IT DOESNT FEEL LIKE A HOLIDAY,
MAYBE EVERYDAY HAS BEEN A HOLIDAY FOR ME?
OH WELL, I JUST REALISED MA AM YUQI IS READING MY BLOG, SO HI!!
PJC=NICE PEOPLE,I THINK?
LIFE'S GREAT
FHSS NPCC AREA 18, PROMO PARADE,
NOT TOO BAD UH.
GOOD TO BE BACK
BUT AS ALWAYS
THERE ARE THE SAME PROBLEMS ALWAYS APPEARING
OH WELL, NOT THAT I CARE
(THAT PERSON) SUCKS AS ALWAYS..XP
AND CAPS MAKES THINGS ALOT MORE LIVLIER DONT U THINK?
ALRIGHT IM GONA BE NICE HERE
YES GUIN UR PRETTY..

2010-02-12T08:31:00.000-08:00

its not much,
but i really like my school alot
heres a couple of reasons why
1) PJC has alot of foreign students which is really awesome getting to meet them all
2) PJC has given us a three week orientation, one that only PJC has exclusively for us to make new friends, catch up with old ones and to bond with our class
3)PJC has given me a great class with mad people(the girls esp) and cool dudes in the class(the MAN)
4) PJC has really exposed me to lots of new things, volleyball, mass dances, clan dances too
5) then there came PIONERO IMPERIO, our orientation!! which rocks completely, LONG LIVE SPARTA!! AHH WUHH AHH WUHH AHH WUHH AHH WUHH!!!!
6) and of course not to forget the OGLS PJC has given to me! supporting me all the way, giving me a fresh new start and they are KUANYAN MICHELLE KAITING WEILIANG JASPER and LI KHOON!
they are all the best
im a pioneer and im proud to be one,
school starts in 5 days time
time to mug! LETS GO!

2010-01-25T01:16:00.001-08:00

its gona be in two days time when i need to prepare for war!
yes jc is like war
you either do or die.
but in any case
im still gona be caught up with school
so im gona apologise if im gona neglect anyone=(
heres geek lee
going to jc to mug...
=(

2010-01-22T10:39:00.000-08:00

lan,movie and dyan's party
did crazy stuff
its late
not gona talk much
bye!!

class chalet

2010-01-20T11:43:00.000-08:00

aha!
yes i know its three forty in the morning
but i dun care
im gona update blog for a little while first
chalet booking was last minute
but i was glad many could turn up?
first day was awesome
i learnt how to play mahjong
played big2 and cheat
which was simple a roll on floor laughing activity
and on the first night
junboon hiangwee zijian and i went night biking to changi village where we enjoyed great nasi lemak althought the unpleasant images...
slept till day two
where we had water bombs
barbie uno, babe watching for joe
learnt freestyle btw!
and then we headed back to change for lunch
came back
armed and dangerous for water bombs and pail floodings
and bbq with sparklers
second night
we just stayed up all night for some gossip session!
went home
reached home about one
woke up at two am
so here i am updating at around 350am!
alright
its nap nap time
goodbye!

time flies, when you're having fun

2010-01-13T05:39:00.000-08:00

its only seem like it was only yesterday
when all of us were enjoying our holidays
those were the days
now that time for us to move on
i hope i still can stay close to my friends
happy gang,sister huiqi, hanbin, kel, jb and so on.
as they all go poly
wish them all the best
gona sound gay
but i will miss them all
miss them for being there to help me
being there to keep my spirits up
and being there in hard times..
all the best to all of u!

2010-01-08T12:46:00.000-08:00

It becomes so hard to sleep when you feel bad..
And so there is this nice person accompanying me and we're currently wallowing in self-pity LOL and waiting for the sun to rise to go back to fuhuaXP

oh well
performance today was ok..? the sec ones made really great audiences=)
i'm going to stop putting on masks because soon my face may just split or have some sort of syndrome(i forgot what i called it).
and i wasted a chalet.... my aunt got a free chalet and i didn't get to use it.
isn't life annoying sometimes?
how people always let things slip past them even when it is so visible and reachable?

Anyway it is really not easy to be me, that is, Darren Lee Zhen Hao.
Which is probably why I am not.
HAHA.

2010-01-08T12:37:00.000-08:00

i am sorry..

i never knew,
perhaps i really misunderstood u greatly...
im sorry.
truly am..

2009-12-31T23:00:00.001-08:00

oh well
heres the new year 2010,
honestly dont see the diff? XP
im stuck at home doing nothing, hence i shall blog bout the new year..
met gerald at seven at clementi WHICH I WAS PUNCTUAL OKAY!
just tt he was early XP
headed off to church to do ushering..
daniel and sarah met us there, did service, did offering=)
and then yea,headed off to marina with friedemann shaula carlos gerald and alex,
we were rather late actually
so we celebrated new year in a bus
went round wishing everyone in the bus a happy new year
shaking everyone's hand!
SHARING THE LOVE=)
and it got super slow cause of the jam
so we got off at robinsons road and walked to lau pa sat
by right we wanted to have supper there cause we were hungry
but then my sister called and asked us to find them at the floating bay
so we walked all the way there
the crowd was not a good sight
all drunk babes and dudes which were quite funny
lolx,
met them, had dinner! at xin wang after meeting sokyin my sis and daniel
headed home
was like three thirty?
then talked to guin on the phone since it was her very peaceful sixteenth birthday
chatted till five plus?
supposed to meet for breakfast with meiling guin and cheryl, but as
always, i overslept=X
oh well
yea
now
i had beehoon
still hungry..
im going fat this year i tell u
my sis is watching iris
i like iris=)
cool show, but dun have the mood to watch it lei
lol
i wna watch avatar again
any takers?O.O kk bb

2009-12-31T02:10:00.000-08:00

the year 2009 is going to end in less than six hours
heres are my last words LOL
may this depressing sad and stressful year end off..
may it end of with a smile on my friend's faces
keeping the friendships that we have now
and may the new year be a time where new bonds are made
old bonds made even stronger
may there be no more pain in any of our hearts
and let there be love for all the people around me..

2009-12-29T07:49:00.000-08:00

you know how people say that they love god and will keep themselves holy
blah blah blah and crap
and then they go about lying about stupid little things,
it really pisses me off..
im upset because u lied..
if u dont like it,
just say it in my face
need not put a fake fk face there
oh well
anyway today i heard a guy saying this
god blesses u through me
..
i dont know how u feel about this statement
but i think its shameless?
just doesnt feel right
TODAY I EARNED ALOT OF MONEY!!! HOHO
happy=)
i worked with eunice ben aijie edmund and gabbie
and and and
SUPERvisor joy is back!
all doing crazy things
ESPECIALLY AIJIE!!
seriously
shes mad
i was doing interviews halfway
and then she shows me her phone
with her line unplugged
i was like, what on earth are u doing!!
i couldnt help laughing
the respondant could hear me lauughing la!
and then
bcos of lousy windows 98 com
it became lag
then TAY AIJIE SUDDENYL SCREAMED when it went back to normal cause she said to the respondant"i'll call u back later.."
JOKE OKAY!
omg crazy bunch
then because i talk very loudly as i do my interview
which i didnt notice,
EUNICE started hitting me!! tsk...
but nvm
today was a bad
bad bAd day
let me correct this statement
BAD ASS DAY! lol

2009-12-28T08:44:00.000-08:00

HOHO
NEW BLOG SKIN
GOOD DE!!
I FEEL MOTIVATED TO BLOG MORE ABOUT MY LIFE
CREDITS TO HH the hyper slow but efficient sister huiqi!

anyway
holidays are boring
its either work
or sleep
or brush teeth and eat..
heng heng i spent my free days out with
CHURCH YOUTHS, spending time helping out for church christmas suervice
HAPPY GANG!, xianqin jr, aijie edmund, aiya u get the drill.. spendning day out celebrating nathans bday=)
and my sister huiqi!
watched movie, avatar, with her
its a bloody nice movie, anyone needs company to watch it can tell me, i will feng pei dao di! LOL
and by the way
HUIQI IS MY SISTER, im not dating nor woo-ing her, just friends, good ones=)

2009-12-19T06:56:00.000-08:00

today marks the end of the 25hour youth camp,
it was a very short yet enriching one
i really managed to let loose and move on.
though i wasnt much of a big role,
but i thank god for the people i have around me
supporting me, and having so much faith in me.
and i am really happy that they appreciate my efforts done,
this is something i love bout my church.
it may not be a big big event that u have done
but its the simplest things u do that can lead to loads of wonders.

i was merely a game ic.
tiring but was happy knowing that i did everything possible then to make sure games was fun.

ok im going to shit now,oops.
bye!

2009-12-15T06:31:00.001-08:00

this is going to be a very very long wordy post, dedicated to all the precious people in my life.
let me start off with one group of people
BEST FRIENDS
edmund lee, foo yong ming, gabbie ng.
these three have been close to me throughout my hole secondary school life.
though we were not in the same class when upper sec, we still make time for each other and to crazy things together.
i wna thank god for giving me these friends, letting me share all of my problems with them, making me feel comfortable.
i remember that all of us used to play basketball after school almost everyday. if not, we would be splashing water at each other till mr GOvind had to scold us and punish us in the evening.
its these crazy moments that make me love them even more.
edmund and yongming(Y.M)
my best bros who plays basketball together,attending sports carnivals for basketball. winning and losing, be it any of that, we had fun together.
Gabbie
the female best friend i had,surprisingly it seems that my close friendship turns out to be an attention to the whole level, thinking that the both of us are together.
i remember once where we were going home from a sec two camp and gabbie and i were playing some hand game, somehow people thought that we were holding hands and news spread like wildfire.those times were crazy,but it was once in a lifetime.
they're the best!
another group of people!
they are my pals
a very big group too
Xianqin, jianrong, shengrong,leon lim, leon tay, aijie, junboon, kelvin, joshua, hiangwee weikiat chienwei guinevere,sheryl teo, cheryl huang, khaycheng,huiqi sawyi hanbin,junjian, joshua ong, ken, tedmond, renon derwin,zhihao, yilun.
these people are the ones who keep me awake when im about to sleep in class, share problems in cca and overcome together, and have fun in town, arena or safra, and talk about crazy topics in class.
these are the people whom keep me happy and motivate me to work even harder in every aspects in my life.
also there are two groups of people
firstly the 13 dec clique
felicia huien benchia
these sec three juniors talk about anything and everything! do insane pranks together and make girls cry.(somehow)
they make me happy when im down at times
the other group would be my primary school class 6opal clique
shaun toh, charmaine ong, cindy kwoh, deborah loo, salif hardie, hafizudin, neo yiwei, weiliang, alpine, geok theng, jiajia, janis ng, yilin, jasmine and all the rest in 6opal!
these people though pri school mates, they still allow me to be happy and relaxed, making laugh out real loud as we do crazy things.
one of the few events we did together, went to mind's cafe for some board games which turned out loads of fun
where i had to do a penalty, getting a number off the street. tbut since i failed, i did push ups on the road till a car was coming over, about to knock me! LOL
and then there were new found friends!
cindy tan, ng kaili, eileen ng, ben, anabella(my neighbour),siewhoon benjamin(siewhoons boyfriend),nathan, aijie, and oh so many more!
new friends every now and then. they make life oh so much more interesting!
and of course the other people, whom have met me, talked crap with me
simply too many that i can barely remember all of your names until i see your faces!

in short
thank you all for making my secondary school life such a wonderful experience. i will always rmb u all

heres to all of u people who know me,
thank you, and love u all,
remember me just as how i will remember you=)

life is simple

2009-11-25T08:23:00.000-08:00

i think my words on my blog are rather small, so here they come big!!
life is simple
keep it nice and happy
it would seem hard to achieve
but its the product that motivates to push even further isnt it?
recent line
GOOD DE
everything is just good de!
take it simple
life willl go on
faith people

had chalet today
went for job interview today before tt
came back
sian now
duno wad to do
hope to go escape tomorrow=X

tired of finding jobs alr
i know i need the money
but really vexed finding alr
and going to far places to get a chance that we might get a job
i felt despo for once actually
oh well
i guess all i can go now is just
wait, wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait...
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.

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2009-11-18T19:13:00.001-08:00

too lazy to update..
holidays are boring when u dont have anything to do..

2009-10-17T07:21:00.000-07:00

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tfsHZWeeLXA&feature=related
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2pF-Dr4RaPQ
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4OLFKXXSBpM

fhss grad ceremony '09
something worth remembering=)

2009-10-12T23:39:00.000-07:00

lets talk about friday
graduated=)
performed with a lil problems but its cool=)
had swimming with xq tedmond jr and junjian
then basketball at centris with like fourteen people....
(centris is friggin cool!)
went home with aijie xianqin and jianrong queeen..
really enjoyed myself=)

sometimes ur nt there..

look at this photograph
everytime i look it makes me laugh..

2009-09-19T03:20:00.000-07:00

yes i know
apologies for nt updating(to anyone)
past few days have been out the whole time
its either mugging till nine at je lib
or out with edmund, shengrong, reon rim, xianqin and jianrong
since so much has happened,lets just leave the past behind and put forth the recent ones
ytd celebrated shengrongs belated birthday
bought cake, gifts for him too,
hoped he likes them ROFL
junjian, tedmond, leon, edmund,xianqin.jianrong, aijie and siewhoon were there
went to arena slacked till the wee hours(we had no idea it was THAT late)
all went back..
previous times during the sept hols,
went to lib on, tues, thursday saturday and sunday with xianqin khaycheng huiqi hanbin sawyi and tongmui(not all were present on each day)
the other days were out with the crazy clique(leon xianqin, shengrong edmund, jianrong) to pool, safra, basketball and bugis..
so much has happened, yet im constrained to keep it to myself..

things are complicated as always..
somehow i feel such a jackass..
i know things will happen, yet i let it happen..
i know its wrong, yet i still let it be..
i know.. yet i...

oh well, a great man once told me"even though all seems lost, life goes on..yet you will never be alone"

i am who i am..

2009-08-28T21:47:00.000-07:00

meessa had a bad bad tummyache yesterday!
it was painful T.T

2009-08-21T02:16:00.000-07:00

prelims are up next thursday..
i dun feel stressed... that kinda freaks me out
i fear for the worst..
lols
its funny when i have too many sweet things God has given me
i never have the feeling of blogging to let it out
yet when i dun feel tt blessed, i turn to blogger, forcing myself to blog..
its sure is funny..
4e2 guys make my day loads=)
around them, i feel happy that i have them..
i shall stop myself from blogging since im forcing it out..
but i just want to let this out..
"sorry, i wasn't on purpose"

2009-08-21T02:12:00.000-07:00

im just ur regular teen,
facing regular teenage issues..
im just out seeking that very smile..
sometimes, u do things to people,
and just when other do the same to u
ur pissed at what they do..
never do we always blame ourseleves
i guess thats just the way we are?
im sorry if it jurt u tt badly..
hope u find ur happiness soon
forget me if u can..
i ain't the guy for u.. thats all u should know..
move on, just as i have=)

cos its my birthday

2009-07-27T05:45:00.000-07:00

yes as u all can see the title
anw, thanks to all of u peeps who wished me=)
kaili,gabbie,edmund, xianqin,leon,jianrong,4e2 cassandra cheryl dyan....
grateful for ur gifts edmund and gabbie=)
heres to u all!
thanks alot!!
i still rmb a year ago
on a sunday
went out to break some stupid world record
i rmb telling so many people about how as our age gets bigger, its not worth getting happy
one year older
one year nearer to death
guess i've changed so much
from nerd ass from 1e to not nerd ass 4e2 teen
..
many thanks
im gona get my bag
and my watch and wallet,
no one should stop me XP

2009-07-16T07:16:00.000-07:00

i like these two pics..

just something for me to think about..

what am i waiting for..

2009-07-16T07:07:00.000-07:00

my wishlist:
nike bagpack
fossil wallet?
M.E watch XP
loads of p.c decks(vipers, smokes and mirrors)
i really like the times i have with my class nowadays.
whackoo, crazy, but fun=)
but u.. fed up i suppose...
15/7
school as usual
pooling and dinner with cindy, eileen and celestine..
met new friends, weiliang from mdis.
nice guy,pro pool player
16/7
school
mr brain..
and helped felicia out with geog
im not doing hw since its nt due tmr
17/7
i would say its just pissed to know that geog would end at five thiry
four hours of geog can kill me..

2009-07-13T05:32:00.000-07:00

today is super gay!
i woke up at six twenty
left in a hurry, hoping to meet up with a friend,
but the bus was super crowded, theres no way for me to go up luh, so didnt meet T.T
so i ended up late for school cos of the bus
so i ran(supposed to but i walked) three rounds round the school with cheryl
i had PE
BBAll during linch break and after school
madness
jy was a hacker(he's 185)
dean was psycho..
crazy times remembered=)
had a one on one with edmund,
tio own 7:2..(i v long never play le lor)
went home alone..

i did not eat breakfast lunch and recess
survived with just water..
i had to run 2.4
with bball,
shagged like shit..
tmrs a mystery.

10/7

2009-07-10T07:29:00.000-07:00

lessons were killing me
i was slightly relieved with basketball in the rain and pooling at arena XP
loads of crazy things going on.
tmr morning is going to be SUPER BUSY!..

youth day

2009-07-10T07:27:00.000-07:00

out with annabella and pete...
went from plaza sing to ngee ann city
then pete left(apparently he said he was sick)
so we walked till traders hotel and bused home..
nice time talking..

2009-07-02T07:07:00.000-07:00

cant we all just take things easy?
he's dead
and yet they just keep pressing on..
the power of media i guess
i have been going home after four thirty because of the school's daily structure remedial
its good
but
tt day's humans remedial session was too mcuh for me
its practically brain dead for me
sigh
keep going
i will not give up
i will go on
never say nevr

2009-06-29T04:24:00.000-07:00

i changed my blog song..
a song that can bring people like me to tears =)
i like this very much.. so im sharing it with u all..
i dun think u can hear the starting, anyway its called never say never by the fray
the starting is just amazing XP

2009-06-28T06:53:00.001-07:00

the deity of christ..
it takes a step of faith to believe..
seeing ain't just all about believeing..
haha, i sounded too holy..
im in love with u
everytime i see u its always a special occasion..
costly so they say, but i guess its worth the money
oh well i hope to see u soon..
dearest..
lets catch haryy potter soon yea?

my dearest cinema XP

2009-06-27T06:31:00.000-07:00

movie with kel today
i saw people..
not too bad a movie, but just expected more drama?
jiahao said boys go there to watch megan fox..
i think the other female's a warning!!
(hot blondie robot who was trying to get things out of sam's brain via sex.. )
dont judge a book by its cover yea?
oh look!!(watching news)
i didnt realise they're so "close"mj
the worlds just full of fake smiles...
so fake..say no to piracy!!

2009-06-26T06:01:00.000-07:00

4e2...
good class..
horrible class outings XP

2009-06-26T06:00:00.001-07:00

tmr's movie day out for transformers
lets just hope theres lesser people..

2009-06-26T05:58:00.000-07:00

life goes on
to mr mj
thank you for your music,
see you in heaven...
she's cute dont u think so?

my way on the highway

2009-04-05T07:32:00.000-07:00

its been quite a bit recently
monday to friday was just school
but bus trips with hiang wee and k.c was on most of the days..
friday was just pissed
ccs training which i went after handing in my work with guin and claudia..(i dont think is pon, just go in late)
i went in for training in my school uniform, so report sick
but i did help out with sec ones pt(since tedmond and renon were all busy with contingent which i opted out XP)
so i left at six,
took a bus home
but since everyone was pushing around
too pissed to stay on the bus..
so i got off and walked home..
its a sunday and i slept through the whole afternoon till 2130..
and i have so much work to do..

2009-03-22T06:43:00.000-07:00

here's what i have done in my holidays
monday was school where i tried to catch up as much as i could in amath,
tuesdays was beaching @ sentosa with 4e2
wednesdays was more lessons
thursdays was me slacking in the day
and listening to cats meowing in the mid dawn zZ 0000 to 0400
fridays was cca trainings
saturdays was gym exercise
today was church and mugging with xq jr kt and e.L
tomorrow still remains a mystery, so i can only hope...
here's something i want to let it out
u are simply too naive to know what those words mean, trust me on that..
admirer and stalker..
in between lies a big line, clearly u've crossed it...
leave her alone..
lead ur own life just as i lead mine, WITHOUT YOU

2009-03-03T03:34:00.000-08:00

its been a while?
common test was going on
so far pretty ok?
i passed my el!!
it was good considering not many passed
overall level msg is 14 lei
wth
Mth...
im improving=)
chem emath and physics is coming up
im going to own them and u got my word on that

2009-02-24T05:55:00.000-08:00

hmm i know not many come base on tags
but im just gona talk about wad i have been doing
for the past times
past days have been a pile of tests!!
good and bad ones
i scored 23/30 for emath test!!
and i scored 70 percent for my physics test!!
wow im so proud of myself man!!
hmm
theres been a craze in my class over MH 2G
i wonder why no one plays MH FU lol
nvm if u dun get it
im getting the hang of it, even though im stuck killing rathian with my bow
damn!!
stupid lei
always corner me even though my timings are perfect!!
anyway
past days been going to my juniors class to chat and do work
i did my chem worksheet mr wong gave us today
im almost 2 pages complete le!!
lol yes i know its slow, but im gona improve
Amath test was hard to do!!
but im still gona work hard to pass my amath!!
today was a real joke during CME because we get to own
mr tan when he makes mistakes!!
ROFL!!
thursday is my commontest already
and theres the stupid geog challenge
sian..
oh well, lets just do our best yea?
chem test on metals is tomorrow
gona mug on it now..
looking forward to studying with felicia huien gabbie and benchia tmr!!
alright
bye!!