Im sorry, i wun disturb u anymore.

i feel like i have to die to atone my sins for it now..
sadd now nt tt ur sad..
sad that u could nt understand that i had no choice and couldnt meet me halfway..
i know ur upset, but please understand it was unintentional and i had no choice
sorry baby

Thanks baby for buying lunch for me and my dad.
Sorry for making you upset most of the time.
But i do believe we are getting better after each quarrel, right? :)
Count down to 9 more days to the 4th.
I love you baby <3

triff :D

and u have a way of putting me down no matter what.

quit saying ur the one always upset.
im sick of it
u think ur the only one?

i bet ur still thinking im upset over u talking to him

im sad today.
not because u talk to other guys
but u think r/s are just so fragile and fickle..
i know ur reading this..
u think u could meet me halfway?

how naive was i to think so

i want an honest one
a commited one who will change.
i want an outspoken one.

mm, been one hell of a day..
been chionging pw for the past week
yea okay i admit ive beeen really lazy to go to school also along with those bad tummy aches and stuff, really didnt make me wna go school.
today i felt bad, so i decided to just chiong all the way even though i was dying halfway cause i was really sick..
got freaking pissed off with people when im actually wanting to help them but they see no point in us doing this and all they do is whine..
disappointing part is when they said that they have done a great load of work,
they have done nothing..
seriously i was v angry, but aiya
too sick to scold
went to school at 8, puncual boy 123~!
had meeting with mr hiap till nine which was pointless becasue we didnt make full use of it, in my opinion..
ended up doing the real work from eleven onwards, then we really worked at it.. or at least for those who wanted to..
stayed an hour plus more to edit up the slides and final touches while some slacker instead of going home on his own to send me his work, he takes his friends iphone to play.. worse, sc's iphone, its like encouraging him to slack, when it really isnt right..
fed up, but nvm, i decided to help anyone who asked for it and help them to my fullest ability.
left school around three
deposited money
but the touch screen machine was seriously screwed up.
heres what happened
i deposited my money in
they asked me to confirm deposit
i pressed the screen confirm button
i pressed the confirm button!! i really did
and then it asked me to deposit money again...
i did again and it repeated.. and the queue was super long, so i tried it twice and gave up zzz
met baby triff on the train and talked about our friend's problem..
felt that somehow triff and i had that problem too, only not that serious.
went up to her place for lunch/dinner, played with her three dogs!! got my windbreaker
then triff got tired, slept the moment she lied on her bed, okay, less than a minute she slept..kinda cute though, seeing her sleep <3
so i didnt disturb her, said goodbye to uncle, huixian jie and baby cheryth,
and headed home..
sigh


sad boy darren lee, hello 123
good thing i met triff and had a little while to cool down and get back on track to my work..
thanks for being there triff:D
OH AND TO ALL! PLEASE BE VERY CAREFUL, THERES BEEN ALOT OF HACKING THESE DAYS!! SO BE REALLY REALLY CAREFUL WHEN U GO OUT..
stay alive people, we need u more than u think xp
nights!
tmr is the day for OP
hope no screw ups
:D smile because he really came back:D

it was just a thought,
just like a dream
it comes naturally..

this is a corner..
it is big enough to sleep in and hug myself, as well as to cry..

gtoing off to emo world now..
i was the cause of the problem, and i say it was her problem
i was flame that cause the fire to burn..
fuck this shit
fucking hate today
everything about today ends badly
some"end badly" day.
i fucking hate myself for having this fucking mindset in my own fucked up head that fucked up so many people.






to the emo carpark

ur tired..
what about me?
i know for the past three months u've been nice, giving in to me almost all the time
but we never get to resolve our problems because we dont discuss our issues directly
take right now for an instance..
im actually talking to u online on msn
but i have to explain all of this on my blog
its just like im beside u when we go out, and u tweet about how u feel, and im expected to go see twitter to know how ur feeling when ur right beside me..
do u have any idea how wierd/ironic/stupid that sounds
okay
then u tell me u cannot express ur emotions in front of me
because of i dont know why..
did u try?
i honestly can tell u that not being able to express ur emotions to someone via sms
is just plain wierd
i dont believe that u cannot express..
unless ur telling me ur down with a brain malfunction
i believe that it is only ur will that u dont want to..
i believe that if u actually made an effort to tell me, it could be done
its just whether or not u are willing..
if u say u suck at expressing ur feelings but u try
i can accept that
but u dun even want to
u just say u cant..
sometimes when we go out
u tweet about something that ur upset about..
be it about me, or my friends or anything
i dont even know
honestly u have literally cast me aside
outcast, tts the term..
u blog about how u feel,
im ur boyfriend and i dont get the privelage of getting first hand information from u, sometimes when u are right beside me? i literally have to guess what ur tweet is about..
im sorry but i just dont get it..

to my baby triff:
baby i know ur tired,tired of explaining, tired of doing so much for me
and giving in to me..
i'm just like u, really tired..
im lost, confused and most of the time emotionally outcasted in our relationship..
so do you think we can redo it all over again?

ps:i'm sorry and i love you.

i want u tell me DIRECTLY what is it u want

i am nothing more but a self centred bastard

today
i was unwell in the morning
told triff i couldnt send her home..
felt really bad..but she was okay??
ltr on in the evening i felt better and a friend was sad, wanted to grab a break
so went out in the evening to cheer her up..
went to scape, came home..